Rebekah sat me down and said,
“Nadia, I know you need to cry, you can just cry, I want to be your safe place.”
“I want to, but I don’t know how.”
“Stop rationalizing your feelings.”
I stopped thinking and I just allow myself to feel the hurt, disappointment, and unspoken anger to God, I sobbed and sobbed, there is so much anguish that I didn’t even know.
“Lord I am tired.” “All the struggles that I have been through, just let me go.” I prayed for relief, I prayed that God would let me go. “Why do I like this guy?” “Why do you give me a failed relationship? You do know it hurts me LORD”
God gave me his Word.
“For this light and momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to things that are unseen. for the things that are seen are transient but the things that are unseen are eternal” 2 Cor 4:18
Figures of the True
by Amy Carmichael
“My sight faith for waiting so long upon my God.”
“My soul melteth away for every heaviness. Who can sing when his soul melteth?”
“Tell me, is not thy heart’s desire to bring many people into glory?”
“That is all I desire.”
“Then there is only one way for thee; I know of no other way. If thou would be inwardly victorious and help others to be victors, thou must refuse to be dominated by the seen and the felt. Thou must look steadfastly through the visible till the invisible open to thee.”